A list of ways to find yourself:
- Draw a map on your heart.
- Ink a compass onto your wrists.
- Write a book.
- Read sadness in someone’s eyes and try to make it fade.
- Press your fingers to your pulse and remember that you are alive.
- Stain your mind with beautiful words that you cannot be rid of.
- Kiss a sharp cheekbone and the tip of a finger.
- Tie ribbons on the branches of trees.
- Listen to yourself breathe.
- Remember that you are living and that you can be anything.
I’m tired.
Tired of people judging me. I know all my defects, I don’t need you to keep reminding me of them. I know them very well.
Tired of being ignored.
Tired of crying.
Tired of people saying that I have no feelings.
Tired of people screaming at me.
Tired of people laughing at me.
Tired of people.
*Mom hands me phone to answer*
- Me: Hello?
- Telemarketer: Hello, is your mother home?
- Me: I have no mother.
- Her: Well can I speak to your father?
- Me: Yeah, which one?
- Her: Which one is home?
- Me: Well they're both home..but I don't think you want to talk to Carlos. He just went through a breakup with his boyfriend, Antonio.
- Her: Oh, so your fathers' names are Carlos and Antonio?
- Me: No, no! My fathers' names are Carlos and Mark.
- Her: So who's Antonio?
- Me: I just told you, Carlos's ex.
- Her: So Carlos was cheating?
- Me: Yes, but that's only because Mark was cheating with Edith, our neighbor.
- Her: So Carlos cheated only because Mark cheated?
- Me: No, he THOUGHT Mark was cheating.
- Her: So Mark wasn't cheating?
- Me: I never said that.
- Her: Yes, yes you did!
- Me: No I didn't.
- Her: Y-yes! You did!
- Me: Did what?
- Her: Y-you- Never mind have a nice day, goodbye.
